Hey guys, I am sensing a chain here. A chain of disappointments that I pretty much with my fucked up brain thrown on myself. I have this power to build myself so high up and then I fall. And after that, after I rearranged myself into a single semi-functional piece again, I wanna fuck myself and question my own stupidity. Why do I do these things to me? Why do I possibly in any set of mind wanna hurt myself like that? I don't have an answer.