hey, it's your birthday, right?

Yesterday, it's a get-yourself-really-drunk-and-delirious day. Well, for me anyway. It was crazy, the amount I drank. I didn't even know I could do that. I didn't even know where the line's at. Drank for 6 hours straight, just babbling, taking in oxygen, breathing it out. Thinking about the past and fretting about an assignment due the next day. It's amazing.

I've not been holding up at all. If I did, it was a false front. I'm so tired, so uninspired. Nothing in me flows. Nobody's singing and dancing in joy.

I was happy, I was sad. I was nervous and I was so glad.

Birthdays, who cares about birthdays?

Grades, projects, tutorials and classes, that's what topped my list. And I'm not even like, doing anything about it. A zombie, part of the walking dead. Blue, and torn. Red and burning.

Vacant.

Open Addiction

The open addiction I don’t wanna fix
So many things to keep me breathing
So much more to keep me wanting
But this is the last place I wanna find myself in
No more giving up, no more white towels thrown in

The open addiction I can’t quit
The painful hook swinging in my face
And I ran, if I could but don’t wanna
Where will I turn to?
Where will I rest my body in?
Will I fly?

Her face is fading, so is my identity
She, my open addiction
Tattoos, my salvation
Hollow, when I am finally filled

Fuck the world, they say
But I don’t wanna
I’m keeping it right here
I am not a traitor
I am only a girl
Only baffled
Laid broken each night
Quiet, tears, quiet, blood

The open addiction I carry around like pretty jewellery
Promise one fine day to redeem me.

I wanna put my heart on the table here, to show the world what it's made of, and its various manifestations.

Go...do, satisfy.

I'm on the other side of where our lives used to be And I can feel alright about whatever's good for me Baby I want to go backYou were supposed to come with me All I ever wanted was to be with you YeahSupposed to come with me Anything I've started now we'll never do

612星球

满园玫瑰我以为找到我那一朵
认真爱了却狠狠刺伤我的双手
责备什麼人也没有用
玫瑰都红 难免看错

望著天空爱是否活在童话裏头
小王子说有些事流浪过才会懂
原来每颗心都有个洞
找不到真爱 会一直寂寞 Oh
我但愿有一个人在等我 在属於我的612星球
好让我忍著痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦

一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱著我的所有
相遇前我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快 请你等等我

擦乾眼泪一个人漂流在这宇宙
小王子说爱一定开在某个角落
路上相爱的人那麼多 我会幸福吗 在什麼时候 Oh

我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我忍著痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦

一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱著我的所有
相遇前我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快 请你等等我

©S. H. E., 我的电台 FM S.H.E (未来电台版) ~ Track 11, 612星球 ~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=quT1IIhSmpU