Letters, Strings and All 15

I can only give you love that lasts forever

And a promise to be near each time you call

And the only heart I own

It's for you and you alone

That's all, that's all.

I can only give you country walks in springtime

And a hand to hold when leaves begin to fall

And a love whose burning light

Will warm the winter night

That's all, that's all

There are those, I am sure, who have told you

They would give you the world for a toy

All I have are these arms to enfold you

And a love time can never destroy

If you're wondering what I'm asking in return, dear

You'll be glad to know that my demands are small

Say it's me that you'll adore

For now, til' ever more

That's all, that's all

I've been playing this song over and over again in my head for the longest time. I spotted it one time on the shelves and I felt it spoke the words my heart could not. I can't tell you that I can give you the world but I can give you everything that I own. I'll give you my world. I love you.

Tara

Hey guys,

So much so for wanting to retire to bed early. I suppose like many other things in life and in this world, people do have different and sometimes, polar opposite definitions for the same thing, such as going to bed early. All right, my laptop clock says 3.01 AM as I begin this entry and still I don't think I'm tired.

I have always had trouble sleeping because I think I like the night better. I like that it's quiet, I like that that's when your entire day winds down, good and bad day alike. I like that everyone is just coming down from a high of sorts and getting ready for bed and kissing their loved ones good night. Don't get me wrong, I love to sleep, no doubt about that. I love being dead to the rest of the world. On an awful day, I could sleep for more than 10 hours. I said awful only because I know it's not healthy and usually it collides into the rest of my schedule and it takes at least two days to get my act back together. Trust me when I say I know it's taking a toil on my health. Sleep is my nicotine, my drug. I worship SLEEP! I'm not ashamed to say that but I would actually like to change that routine for something better. And I know that it'd be better because not only I get to keep sleeping for 8, 9 hours, I'll also have a healthier life. Maybe.

I once thought having a room to myself and a bed would change things but it only fueled the bad habit of not sleeping because now I can do whatever I want and stay up as late as I can. Such as writing this blog. OK, so the clock shows 3.35 AM.

I am turning 24 in less than ten days and I want to see change. So, change.

Good night guys. Or good morning.

Aubrey

And Aubrey was her name,
A not so very ordinary girl or name.
But who's to blame?
For a love that wouldn't bloom
For the hearts that never played in tune.
Like a lovely melody that everyone can sing,
Take away the words that rhyme it doesn't mean a thing.

And Aubrey was her name.
We triped the light and dance together to the moon,
But where was June?
No it never came around.
If it did, it never made a sound
Maybe I was absent or was listening too fast,
Catching all the words but then the meaning going past

But God I miss the girl,
And I'd go a thousand times around the world just to be
Closer to her than to me.

And Aubrey was her name,
I never knew her but I loved her just the same.
I loved her name.
Wish that I had found the way
And the reasons that would make her stay.
I have learned to lead a life apart from all the rest.
If I can't have the one I want, I'll do without the best.

But how I miss the girl
And I'd go a million times around the world just to say
She had been mine for a day

Taking a leap of faith

Hey guys,

I thought I write you a post about what I've been doing for the past couple weeks.

As of 29 October 2010, I have left my previous job at a copywriting firm. The once bizarre and surreal dream has finally come to an end. And it's quite ironic because just a week before my last, I have bared my soul about what I thought about my life and my job to my ex-boss and colleagues during a sharing session. And she, my ex-boss, had promised me that however long I am going to take to figure out if I want to be a copywriter, she is going to support me. Guess sometimes promises are indeed meant to be broken and naivety isn't always a virtue. Anyway, it's been a good chapter, an almost good year. I have learnt a lot about writing and I have made great friends. Though I still can't be 100% sure what I want to do (given my current sticky circumstances), at least now I have an inkling what I don't want to do. Boss, I know you aren't going to read this but I wanna say thank you. You have given me a chance and because of that, I am deeply grateful. I wish you the best with the firm and everything else you have got going in life.

OK, off to something silghtly more cheery now. Let's talk about my blog, my other blog. It's probably a semi-open secret by now. As you all know, I am an aspiring writer and wish to make my mark as a reputable fiction writer. I've adopted the pseudonym, Liesl T, and have put up most of every essential component a blog requires to run. What's lacking now are the characters' profiles and this Please Donate Generously If You Like What You Read thingy. My blog partner thinks it's a great idea. And also, the prologue and chapter 1 are up. There may be slight changes for the end of chapter 1. I'm still playing with clarity and flow so it complements the beginning of chapter 2 which I am totally racking my brains over now. You guys just check back here for the blog address or simply, if you already know me, do check out facebook and twitter. Constructive comments will be much appreciated. I haven't been real inspired to write about anything but I pray to God that that would soon change. Like now would be nice. I am aiming to officially release the blog in two weeks' time.

What else is up and coming is that I recently got back from Batam, one of the many many commercialized islands of Indonesia and a recent headline in the local newspapers. I really don't like it there which makes it quite impossible for me to ever wanna return but for those who are looking to visit, don't let me stop you. I am sure there are many good places and parts in Batam I have yet discover. Continuing on the topic of traveling, I am going to the Chinese embassy tomorrow to apply for a visa to go to China for at least 3 months. I have never been to China and I don't know if I want to but I wouldn't know until I've actually experience it so I'm keeping my fingers crossed and hoping that there is Starhub cable TV there.

I'm treating it like a sort of sabbatical, a span of time where I'll discover and reacquaint with myself and my love for writing and people and if I really do enjoy traveling like I have imagined I would be. If it works out, I know that I've made another good step towards something great and that I have accomplished or even overcome something. I am really looking forward to it. After China, that is if my visa application comes through and that I return early next February, I'll be making plans for a second trip. I'll be meeting my soulmate for the first time. She's potentially flying to Singapore next June and we'll both embark on a trip around South East Asia. We'll be leaving our marks in countries like Malaysia, Thailand, Cambodia and whatnots. We'll see. I better not turn up to be a dork and totally embarass myself.

Well, I'll talk to you guys next time!