I shared a unique relationship with my mp3 player. One based on trust and reliance.
I could never do anything right without it and sometimes, with it. It was an escape from reality, a temporary but legitmate reason to get away from it all. With every new song, come a new reality which I enjoyed thoroughly. But like everything in this world, there is always a trade off, always a price tag attached. With headphones glued to my ears 24/7, the price could be hefty. And with that crafty temptation to tune it up so loud it completely drowns whatever sounds that were going on around lurking, I could easily lose my hearing. And we are talking years.
Music provided a reason not to interact, to establish eye contact longer than a minute but still be there. I was never in with any crowd, keeping to myself, constantly feeding two of my more prominent demons that are Inferiority and also the lack of want for socialization. There are times where I simply didn't have to give a f what other people were talking about so...So friends, when you see me taking off my headphones and giving you my full attention when you're talking, you know you meant a whole damn ton lot to me! ;)
With every song comes a different surge of emotions, provided different outlets for escape, rest, warmth and familiarity and on rare occasions, joy and contentment.And with every song comes a different enjoyment...bringing forth a distant memory at times...I may be a walking jukebox but it's my world. That's all that matters.
Most of the time I have a song stuck in my head. It's either my latest favorite song or just a song I last heard on the player. Either way, I have a busy and noisy mind. Sometimes the songs fulfilled the role of a defense mechanism, sometimes, they are great diversion, usually a safe haven and a way to keep me awake.
Whoever invented music and wrote songs invented an outlet to forget, a false sense of security when one is so desperately needed and a new way of communicating and putting thoughts across. Music is a beautiful thing, for the blind, for the people who can't walk, for those who live in constant poverty and hardship and for those blind in their pursuit for whatever things, good and bad in life..music is equilibrium.
Maybe that's why I love music so much...
Alejandro Sanz feat. Shakira - Te Lo Agradezco Pero No
Aslyn - That's When I Love You
Avril Lavigne - The Best Damn Thing album
S.H.E - 说你爱我, 情人, She's the One
王力宏 - 我们的歌
